Deja Vu.

Almost six years ago I wrote this...Women get pregnant spontaneously all the time. I will always think that was an odd statement, but that's what she said as I was sitting in her office explaining through the tears that we were weeks away from getting an invitation to travel to Russia to adopt two children and that we were desperate to know about the health of the pregnancy.


Now we're almost at the end of the first trimester, we've had three ultrasounds...visual proof that I am pregnant but even with that we're still in shock by it all. It's not that the doctors ever said we couldn't get pregnant on our own; it's just that we didn't think it was likely after all the infertility treatments and trouble we've had in the past. That's what we get for thinking. So, if all goes well we will welcome the newest Freeman in November. We will truly be giving thanks this year.

Today I write this..."Women get pregnant spontaneously all the the time, or that's what my doctor told me when I found out I was pregnant with my six year old daughter."  That's what I told the ultrasound tech a few weeks ago, and then I added, "Well, here I am again...spontaneously pregnant."  Thankfully I wasn't crying or planning an adoption or desperate about the health of the pregnancy.  I wasn't smiling much though and if the truth be told I was secretly wishing I was anywhere but sitting there in that ultrasound room.

Now we are almost at the end of the first trimester, we've had two ultrasounds...visual proof that I am pregnant but even with that we're still in shock by it all.  It's not that the doctors ever said we couldn't get pregnant on our own; it's just that we didn't think it was likely after all the infertility treatments and trouble we've had in the past.  That's what we get for thinking.  So, if all goes well we will welcome the newest Freeman in September.  We will truly be giving thanks this year.